I am going to share my story about IVF
I hope women going through this process find this inspiring.
I hope supporting families find this enlightening.
My Hubby & I tried “naturally” for about 5 years to fall pregnant.
“Naturally” in this case for a woman desperately to give your wonderful hubby his only wish in the world means, handstands after the deed, tried every position, timed everything, slept with a pillow under my pelvis. OMG the list goes on & on (for 5 years). So at the point of having done everything with no success I finally succumbed to the fact that we needed professional help & before I went mad & my poor hubby divorced me.
I was 35 at the time & my hubby was 32 (yes I’m a Cougar). That day I was going to make the decision, to either give up or go through IVF. Dr Swift is the most amazing Doctor, because he is brutally honest. In fertility terms I was classified as a “Reproductive Dinosaur”. Our other issues were that, I had a low egg count & hubby’s fellas were all over the shop, but all in all, it should have happened naturally according to him. The elephant in the room was what do we do next? We looked at each other then looked at Dr Swift. He had made the decision for me & took me next door to the Fertility Clinic for more “testing”. The “testing” was actually prep for IUI. After the “testing” the lovely fertility nurse gave me some dates & said “here’s the info on your IUI procedure booked for sometime around the 16th which will be ovulation pinpointing, so we don’t miss the big day”. Hold on What big day? “Insemination Day”! I almost melted into a puddle of the floor. Somehow I had fallen into the path of signing up for IVF & it was coming for me like a freight train. All of a sudden things were happening too fast. It was all so, scientific & unromantic. It took me a couple of days to get my head around it.
We gave IUI’s up after the 2nd failed attempt (2 months after we started). There was absolutely nothing sexy about IUI (not even romantic music) so we moved onto full blown IVF
I also read an article about Soy milk which stopped me in my tracks . I drank Soy Chai Lattes daily – Loved them – We both gave up soy anything, cold turkey that day for the sake of infertility. I postponed IVF for a month to get the soy out of my body, then tackled IVF.
There is nothing that can prepare you for IVF as every woman is different & has a different story. I handled all the needles & surgeries fine. It was the waiting & the failures that I couldn’t deal with.
Egg collection – What a wonderful experience, NOT!! This is where you inject yourself every day with hormones to make your body release eggs. The first time we got 5 eggs! YaY right! Well no, not when its expected to get 10 or more. More tears & fear of failure! I felt like I was failing as a woman. I could not even do the most primitive role of a woman, reproduce. The hormones can make you a real mess and on top of more bad news.
Transfer – 5 days after the embryo’s are fertilized they transferred the strongest 1 back “fresh” into the uterus, & froze the other that survived. They rate the embryos & in our case it was a Good embryo ( & we froze the other good (rated) Blastocyst). Dr Swift has a wonderful saying after the transfer, “Cross your legs, think fertile thoughts & we’ll see you for a blood test in 10 days”. Did I mention that the 10 days once you are implanted feel like lifetimes. You do everything in your power to think positive thoughts while hormones play havoc in your body & brain. The best part of that day was the valium.
For the third month in a row the result was negative. Not Pregnant. Lots of tears. Devastation & a feeling that I should give up! Hubby walked around on “egg shells” as he said, too scared to say anything. It’s one of the most traumatic experiences you can go through juiced up on hormones you can go into a very dark place.
I sucked it up & in the following month we transferred the frozen embryo – Another negative – Not Pregnant Devastation!
So what now. I took a break! It took a couple of months for me to regain my strength to be up for another round! In this time I took up Acupuncture & Chinese medicine
In this program I was no allowed to eat anything cold. Everything had to be room temperature. I also consulted this amazing woman Kerrie Edwards-Ticehurst for some emotional prep & guidance. I did this for a couple of months, then we resumed our quest for our “holy grail baby”.
I was becoming a pro at all this stuff & I seemed to handle it a lot better. We got 8 eggs this collection. 8 is our favourite number so we thought it auspicious. 4 survived to Blastocyst! We decided to freeze all of them. I just wanted to have a month in between without all the crazy hormones. We tracked for a month & Sidney was transferred the following month & let me tell you he is a true gift! Amazing totally worth it! #Blessed 2 days before my 40th birthday! Best Birthday Gift Ever!
I gained 30kg while pregnant with Sidney (celebrated with food). I looked at myself in the mirror & did not recognise myself.
When Sidney turned 4 months, we started our exercise program (walking/running with pram) & joined the 12WBT challenge (twice) & I successfully lost my weight.
With 3 frozen embryos left we decided to go for number 2. I prepped for a month acupuncture, herbs & no cold drinks. This time it was just tracking & transfer!
I really didn’t have much hope for my first session back (you know out of practice) but believe it or not I fell pregnant with William straight away. Celebrated with food again gained 30kg but I didn’t care I had my 2 beautiful boys. #truelyblessed!
We did go back to collect our other 2 frozen babies after William, but sadly they did not survive their transfer.
I’m back to my healthy weight, had a mummy makeover & loving life.
I understand the IVF journey, if you feel like reaching out then don’t hesitate. X Libby
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